It's been a long time since I posted anything.
be honest, my mind and motivation have been kind of lost for months. I
started the year off dealing with both breaking up with Baby Mama and
losing my job of fifteen years.
She and I finally had to admit
to ourselves that, while sometimes opposites may attract, they don't
necessarily live in harmony happily ever after.
The store I
worked for was closed by the company due to a breakdown in lease
renegotiation, and there were no open positions anywhere in the district
for full timers, so the whole management team was left swinging in the
breeze. Well, that's kind of harsh. They actually did provide us with a
very generous severance package (and I'm not saying that sarcastically).
at the end of January, I found myself unemployed, moving out of the
house where my Baby Girl lived, and wondering what the hell was next.
started what I thought was going to be a dream job. I've ridden for
well over twenty years, so working at a motorcycle dealership should be
an awesome gig, huh? Maybe for some people. Whatever your passion is;
motorcycles, cooking, photography, whatever, be very careful and think
it through very well before making a living at it. There's more than
even odds that you'll just wind up turning your former passion into your
daily grind. Some can make it work, and work well. I'd say the vast
majority don't. Then, on top of that, my sales weren't up to par, so
they let me go a couple of months ago, and I had to job hunt again.
Baby Mama decided she needed to move from Austin back to Atlanta. She
has her reasons, and I know they're valid, but that doesn't make it
easier for me to accept that I now have two children who live 1,000
miles apart. I respect her reasons, and I understand them, but there's
still a part of me that wants to be fucking pissed off and to resent
her. I don't; but still...
So, anyway, it's been a hell of a
year for me. My inspiration to write left, and even at times when I felt inspired, I just didn't have the motivation to do it. But now it's come back. I don't know how often I'll write, but
A couple of bright spots:
Baby Mama and I both have iPhones - thank God for Face Time. I get to talk to Baby Girl face to face.
just started working at one of the companies I really wanted to get
with. A big corporation with competitive pay and good benefits, and
they're national, so when the Boy Child graduates from high school in a
few years, I can move to Georgia to be near Baby Girl, and it will just
be a transfer with the same company, instead of starting the job search
been invited to occasionally contribute to a couple of websites. It
doesn't pay, but it's inspired me to start writing again, plus I know
that my stuff will be read by more people than the small number who
follow my personal blogs. Check out www.youmotorcycle.com and bikerMetric.
yeah. I'm back. And I'm still not always right, but I'm still always
pretty damn close. And when you're dealing with horseshoes and hand
grenades, close counts, y'all.